I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear.

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Hey, I tried to make everything okay. But I just mess it up. I've ruined everything. Sometimes I wish I am dead, you know. Haha who am I kidding, I'm useless anyway. To think again, why am I here? I fucked everything up. I love my family, but we started to fall apart. Can't blame them, though. They've done everything for me,  I am ungrateful bitch. What did I do for them? Absolutely nothing. I'm better off dead. Yes, absolutely. Wow I am so pathetic.



Dear moms,
Ya'll did great. I love you guys. Sorry I never do anything great. Sorry I am your daughter. You deserve more. A daughter that helps you in the kitchen, A daughter that do chores not like me. I am stupid I can't even do chores. Sorry. Sorry that I am your  daughter  Sorry I was ever born.

Dear Abah,
I wish you know you are my hero. You do a lot of great things, I am so lucky that you are my father. But I feel pity for you because I am not what you want.  I am useless, rude, stupid,ungrateful and good for nothing. I am sorry, Abah. I wish I am a good daughter. Im not. Sorry. Sorry that I am your daughter, sorry I was ever born.

Dear Abang and Adeeb,
Im not the pretty sister you have. That you can go brag to your friends. Or I'm too antisocial to blend in with your friends. Sorry I am rude, moody and just plain stupid. Im so immature. You guys the best brothers any sister could ask for. Thank you for protecting me. I love you guys.

Dear kakna and kaklah,
I wish we could rewind all the times we together. I love you guys. Usually it's ya'll who leave me, but today. Today I'll leave you guys forever. Dont forget to come here ok? They need you. Please unite with them. That's what I always wanted from you guys.

Dear my little brother,
Sorry that you will forget me in a few years. Sorry that I am not the best sister you ever had. Sorry that I always picked on you, I love you. I really love you. Please, be a good boy to mums and dad. Make them proud. Make me proud. I love you.













Sorry I was ever born. I wish June 28th 1998 never happened.

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