Would it?

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Finally, I have the time and  the internet.

I would describe my week as painful and stormy. heh. I constantly waiting for friday, and that, that is pain, you know. I mean, everyone understand the feeling, of course. I want to change my life , yet here I am neglecting my study although my second semester's result was very bad. I failed one subject I never passed, hehe. Pengajian Am asked too much, I mean. I never understand what MPM wanted. One second they told us every tricks to pass the subject, later they decided to change the scheme. Economics which I studied so hard, I only got C-. A little bit more would have reach my target. Pengajian Perniagaan C although I expected a B and lastly, Sejarah which I expected to fail, C. I mean, my result was not pretty or something that can make anyone proud but Allah knows I tried my best. And here I am, neglecting my studies again. Just kidding, I just finished my kerja kursus. Done editing. I can't do much since it's already 11:48 PM and my dad forced me to sleep. But gotta blogging first.

You know my favorite tv show? Teen Wolf? I am so mad and upset they killed Brett Talbot and his sister, Lori. I am mad and hurt. They don't deserve to die! And Theo Raeken is missing?! Hell. Everyone who died (except main villians) on TW don't deserve to die. And those who left? Should've never left and they should come back. Like I literally don't care anymore about ships, I just want happy ending.

Phew, Done ranting, alright? I'm hoping for a better life, to be frank. I need to create something new, good and unique if that's not too much. I'm also hoping for a better me, a better home. Let's say home... kinda dull. We are not happy the way we used to. If we were really happy... But me being me, never give up hoping. I will never stop hoping for a home and my family.

Alright, it's not even late for me. Like, usually I will sleep around 2-3 am and woke up zombie next day. But tomorrow I will bring my little brother to this huge field and we're gonna play badminton together. I hope this is a start to a happier family.

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