Crimson

I planned everything. I did. Right after that goddamn graduation, I already planned it. I want to be at the stage for something good. I want to beat my classmates. I was damn furious because I couldn't get the best student for perdagangan award. I was so close. She is just one mark higher than me, though. was furious. And I wanted to beat her, beat everyone, prove to them that I am successful and my parents are proud with me and they did. I did. I beat them. I got to be at the goddamn stage with best student award. And little did I know---my life ends there. I didn't get a single offer from any uni, just a polytech. Yeah, it should be fun. I should've go. Yet I chose this form 6 life. I chose this life. Doesn't matter because the price for my 6A's is I lost everything. My will to live, my dreams to study overseas, to become a psychologist/computer expert, and all of it. I have zero motivations to live, my dreams were crushed, I don't even know what I wanna